Notes (48-51) - 2025

It all started with Tars refusing to eat and having repeated vomits. When it crossed 24 hours, we got worried and consulted our usual vet, who prescribed some medication. Maybe because I was already alert and uneasy, I woke up at 2AM that night to find him pooping blood all over the balcony.

Everything moved quickly after that. We rushed to find a hospital in the middle of the night. I’m deeply grateful to Ramya and Rahul, who were awake and didn’t hesitate even a second to help us find a place, come along, and stay with us through this. By morning, Jagan joined us, and it became clear that surgery was unavoidable.

What followed was a long, emotional night: tests, waiting, watching him closely, and feeling completely helpless. I also happened to witness death for the first time: a cat at a clinic and a puppy at the hospital. Ramya, Rahul, Jagan and especially Lohith from whom we got him as a puppy, waited with us to get the surgery done. He was already a VIP at the hospital and we didn’t feel alone through any of it because of them. I didn’t know how to thank them properly.

• I met more people than usual for work in the last few weeks. I had a podcast starter call with Yash. The recording did not work properly and Evernote captured only one side, but it still felt like a good beginning. We had the vibe check done :)
• Eva and her family came over and spent the day with us. It was simple and warm.
• I also met Vidhya at Clay Bistropia, which felt grounding in its own way.
• I met Kaushik a couple of times. He helped explain the difference between discrete and continuous random variables in a visual way that I know I will never forget it. I also ended up taking a few sessions for him. Knowledge exchange felt nice and balanced. Seeing his folder structure in the Notes app oddly made me want to build one for myself too. I am hoping to meet him along with Rohan someday and cook a three-district lunch together.
• Meeting friends once in a while really is happiness.

• Working partly with my cousin reignited my interest in knowing things again: learning for its own sake, not for output. He introduced me to Accelerando, which I’m currently reading, and it’s been sitting with me in strange ways.
• I came across Freecash: idea that basic money can be generated almost mechanically, just to live. It raises uncomfortable questions about value, effort, and meaning in the future. I don’t have any opinions as such yet, but it’s a new find for me.